October 31, 2026



Nothing much today; I started the day by drinking a can of Monster to get through the week. But my next time off will be two days in a row—yay!



I sent my phone in for repairs, and—would you believe it?—my sister’s old phone, which I’ve been using, broke TOO. The things that happen to me, honestly.



My phone should be ready by Monday or Tuesday.



And that’s about it—nothing special today :/



Oh, I was listening to MCR on my way home and remembered why they’re my favorite band.

I heard they announced a new album, but I’ve been waiting for so long that I don’t even believe that rascal Gerard Way anymore.



Song of the day: Thank You for the Venom - My Chemical Romance—I spent the whole day singing it. Honestly, I could list My Chem’s entire discography as the "song of the day." And if I can add a second one, let’s go with "Stop the F*cking Car" by Circa Survive—because, yes, I am currently obsessed with Anthony Green.

October 30, 2026



Is it Halloween yet? Tomorrow is Halloween, but I have to work, so I dressed up today. I’ll post the photos on "Lavi's Camera"—I went as Tiffany, Chucky’s bride. Even though I’m not going to any parties, I like to dress up every year; last year, I was a vampire.



My paycheck came in, so I bought a few little things—nothing major—and had some sushiiii. I love sushi!



I also bought myself a Fall Out Boy shirt. Since FOB is one of my sister’s favorite bands, I got her a Paramore shirt as a gift so she wouldn’t feel left out.



Since I spent the whole night doing my makeup, we’ll continue our "musical late-night session" tomorrow. Also, I’m completely obsessed with Anthony Green’s voice.

October 29, 2026



A chill day; I’ve got another day off tomorrow, and I’m getting paid, too. I’m going to buy a massive sushi platter and a hell of a lot of energy drinks.



Continuing with our late-night music sessions, today I dove into the work of the man himself: Anthony Green. *Translating the Name* is an absolutely killer EP. While part of me wishes Anthony had stayed with Saosin, I also really loved Circa Survive.

Hey, Mr. Green—couldn’t you have just stayed in both bands at the same time? You’ve got such a beautiful voice.



I’m excited to check out L.S. Dunes, knowing he’s the lead singer.



Tomorrow, I’m going to stuff myself with sushi.



Today’s track: In Fear And Feith - Circa Survive. because, Mr. Green, i love your voice so much

October 28, 2026



I have to work tomorrow, but I’m off right after, so tomorrow night—or rather, the early hours of the following morning—will be dedicated to listening to albums.

This time, it’ll be an L.S. Dunes special. No one told me Anthony Green was the lead singer! So, we’ll be listening to Saosin, Circa Survive, Leathermouth (since the L.S. Dunes special also includes Frank Iero), and, obviously, L.S. Dunes. Maybe some Dance Gavin Dance, Thursday, Glassjaw, and other post-hardcore classics will make the cut too—though I’m not sure if I can fit it all into one night.



I’ve decided to start another painting using oil pastels; they might just be my favorite medium. You get the control of a crayon combined with the contrast of oil paint—without having to wait an eternity for it to dry! The downside is that they’re a bit too chunky for fine details, but I don’t really do detailed work with oil pastels anyway—that’s better left to pencils.



Oh, how I love having a day off, working the next, and then having another day off—it’s just the best.



My hair is almost strong enough for another round of bleaching, hehehe.



Today’s track: "Kiss the Ring My Chemical Romance—just because I’m feeling like a queen today.

October 27, 2026



Just another workday—nothing too special, but I did get a compliment, hehe.



I almost asked a customer if he wanted my number, but decided to check with my supervisor first to see if I’m allowed to flirt with customers—and he gave the green light! :D I just have to be discreet about it.



I spent the early hours of the morning listening to some of Elita’s releases; everything is now cataloged in "Lavi's MP3." I’m planning to write reviews for all the albums, including the unreleased material. I revisited *Sick Girl* and *Hell Hill* and set up their review pages, and I also listened to *Anxiety Angel* and *Blood Sucker* for the first time—those pages are ready to go, too.



Today’s track: Planet Paparazzi - Elita—it’s my absolute favorite song from the diva.

October 26, 2026



I hate it so much when a customer pays for a R$10 item with a R$100 bill. Like, dude, I’m already out here busting my ass, and you decide to make it even worse by taking all my change? If you’re going to break a R$100 bill, at least buy more stuff, for fuck’s sake. Anyway, rant about customers over.



I’m absolutely loving being blonde.



I messaged my ex for some reason—just to catch up on gossip, I guess (not Sam, the ex I had before him).



I was heading home listening to "Join Us for a Bite"—yes, the *FNaF* one. I was on the bus, trying to make sure no one could see what I was listening to. And I swear, the driver slammed on the brakes out of nowhere, and everyone went flying forward—right at the exact moment the lyrics hit: "Can't wait to meet youuuu." It was fucking hilarious.



Song of the day: "Join Us for a Bite" by JT Music. Honestly, I listened to a lot of stuff today—it almost ended up being "Vestige" by Alesana—but, well... "CAN'T WAIT TO MEET YOU" (plus everyone tumbling forward when the bus braked).



This page is becoming so unserious.

October 25, 2026



Trying to write this entry while I’m fucking drunk—well, maybe a little less so now.



Election day. I woke up FEELING TERRIBLE—nauseous, threw up a bit, and filled with anxiety about the future of this country. Seriously, the fear that Bolsonaro’s son might win was extreme—EX-TREME.



I’m not Catholic—actually, I’m a pagan and a devotee of Apollo—but I felt I needed to appeal to some deity. Our Lady of Aparecida is the patroness of Brazil, the saint who protects the country, so I offered up several prayers to her.



I was incredibly anxious at work, and a colleague noticed. That’s when I started praying to Our Lady, and my colleague helped me by showing me how to pray the Rosary; that calmed me down a bit.



I saw news reports of people doing whatever it took to go vote for Lula—massive throngs of people carrying flags and dressed in red, the whole nation united to save the country from fascism. People traveled by plane, boat, and bus; they crossed borders just to elect the "old guy" once again. I’ve never felt so proud of this country.



The vote count began with Lula in the lead, but then the voting period was extended, and the count came to a halt. Many people weren’t even able to vote after the extension, as several polling stations were shut down—which really looked like an attempt at an electoral coup. There were also instances where people glued the numbers 1 and 3 together (Lula’s number is 13) or ripped the keys off the voting machines. (Here in Brazil, we use electronic voting machines.)



When the vote count resumed, Bolsonaro took the lead, and it stayed that way for a while. His supporters started celebrating; I fell into a state of despair and went back to praying. I prayed another 50 Hail Marys—having already prayed 50 before that, bringing the total to 100.



Afterward, I also prayed 10 Hail, Holy Queens. And when I finished... Lula was in the lead. Oh God, I nearly cried when I saw hope returning to the country.



I had promised to pray 5 Hail Marys a day for a week if Lula won—and sure enough, he did. Lula won the election in a historic turnaround. For the first time in the history of Brazilian democracy, a candidate who placed second in the first round went on to win the election in the second. We managed to flip many votes and get plenty of people to the polls—even many elderly folks.



Lula has also served as president for longer than anyone else in Brazil’s democratic era; the man is a living legend. I was born during one of his terms, and I feel honored to witness this, his final one.



Back home, it was time for us comrades to celebrate. I drank an entire bottle of wine-flavored draft beer—I’m still a bit tipsy. I even fell onto the bathroom floor—actually, I ended up falling in several places around the house. I listened to some great music to celebrate the fourth and final term of my president and comrade, Luiz Inácio Lula da Silva.



What a day, ladies and gentlemen—what a historic day! And bless Our Lady; I’ve discovered I’m a devotee of Mary, even though I don’t believe in the Bible.



Today’s music: is there any better choice than the Brazilian national anthem? "Brazil, may you be a symbol of eternal love."

October 24, 2026



I’m having a serious identity crisis now that I’m blonde. I like being blonde—but was I born to be blonde?



Tomorrow is the presidential election... God have mercy on this country; I’m scared.



I almost worked up the courage to flirt with a guy on the bus, but then I realized he was on the phone with his girlfriend.



Nothing is going right for Lavi—who is now blonde.



Today’s song: Ego - Elita. I was listening to it on my way home while it rained like it was the end of the world

October 23, 2026



Something happend and i'm not fucking talking about it,



and i got blonde, it took me so much time to get it blonde that i'm not dyeing it today, actually i'm liking to be blonde, maybe i keep this way for somedays

October 22, 2026



It’s 4 a.m., I have the day off tomorrow, and I just downed two cans of Monster Energy back-to-back.



I really hope my bleach arrives tomorrow; I want to dye my hair, like, right now!



I was listening to some electronic-core on my way home while finishing that second Monster—I’d love to go to a rave that plays Ghost Town



I think I’ve become someone’s older crush—lol, how cute!



My period cramps are absolutely killing me.



I’ve got a credit card now—hello, adult life!



Today’s song: Acid - Ghost Town. Seriously, I need a rave that plays Ghost Town. Energy drinks go so well with electronic-core; they don’t mess you up like alcohol or drugs do, but they keep you totally wired—and I LOVE that.



And since I’m not a fan of black coffee, energy drinks are the best way to get a boost—just a mild stimulant, basically caffeine, taurine, and sugar

October 21, 2026



Nothing much at work, other than my period starting at the end of the day and cramps all day long.



Writing this entry is proving difficult because I’m listening to pop music and getting distracted by the vocals—damn, Chappell Roan!



Waiting for my bleach to arrive; I think it’ll get here before my day off, so I can dye my hair then.



I might be a little bit in love with the son of a former Brazilian president. SORRY, TEMER, BUT YOUR SON IS A TOTAL HOTTIE. He’s around my age—a year younger—and I really want him, though I probably don’t stand a chance, lol. His family is, like, super wealthy, but he seems approachable—no harm in trying, right? Imagine calling a former president "pops-in-law." Oh, just to be clear: his father was one of the worst presidents the country has ever had, but the son is on the complete OPPOSITE side of the political spectrum. If he wants to use me to piss off his dad—well, I’m a radical leftist (and Temer is right-wing).



And cool thing, his father is know by the name of "vampire" here in brazil, because he's old. and people are now telling me i'm in love with a little vampire, well, I LOVE VAMPIRES



Another thing: I love my sister. I talk about her all the time, but what can I say—she’s the love of my life. It’s rare for me to love someone, but when I do, I love them intensely. I’d literally throw myself in front of a truck for my friends—I’m loyal as hell. But my sister is different; I’d throw myself in front of *five* trucks for her—right after telling her I’d never do something so ridiculous and reminding her that our family found her in the trash.

What can you say about the love between siblings?

We like the same things and have so many inside jokes that we’ll just start laughing out of nowhere, leaving everyone else confused. Man, I love that girl.



These cramps are killing me.



Today’s song: Soon We'll Be Found - Sia. I’ve listened to a few of her songs and one of her albums, but I’d never heard this one before—damn, what a great track. And that’s how I accidentally stumbled upon a wonderful vocal pop playlist on YouTube, and now I don’t want to leave (Aurora is playing right now)

October 20, 2026



Nothing exciting at work, as usual. Although, the security guard today was absolutely delicious—what a man—but I didn’t have the nerve to hit on him. He seems pretty stupid, but damn, he was hot.



Oh, and I got a credit card.



My cyan hair dye arrived! Now I just need the bleach, and then I’ll have cyan/teal hair!!



At home, I decided to revisit The Living Tombstone with my sister, and—holy shit—I really lived through a great era.

I was such a weird kid—a pre-teen who only ever talked about indie games and cartoons. I was obsessed with *FNAF* and *Undertale*, and I loved those questionable fan animations. And The Living Tombstone’s songs? PERFECT. I was the ultimate stereotype of a "weird kid" with too much internet access—from the mid-2010s all the way to... well, actually, even today. I never stopped being obsessed with indie games; I just expanded my repertoire, and I still love everything from that time.



Little 10-year-old Lavi, I’d spend the whole day talking to you about *Undertale* (and *Deltarune*—which hadn’t really been released yet, and you didn’t like it back then, but you will later on!). And about *FNAF* and *Bendy*, too. I’d love to see the sparkle in her eyes if she knew that, nowadays, I own all these cool games on Steam.



Today’s song: It’s Been So Long - The Living Tombstone—because it’s a MASTERPIECE.

October 19, 2026



Another workday—yay. I managed to wake up a bit earlier today, and I’m counting that as a small victory.



I activated my new phone line (Laricel); the internet is good, and I’ve already used the new number to set up a WhatsApp account under the name "Marco Antonio." I had some fun with my friends, pretending Marco Antonio was a scammer, before finally revealing that it was actually me—Marco Antonio.



It was pretty funny. I tried to do the same thing with my ex, but he blocked Marco Antonio—he didn’t want to play along.



And that’s that—three cheers for the new diva, Marco Antonio!



Today's Song - Burried Myself Alive - The Used. because i love this song so much i could scream the lyrics out of my lungs

October 18, 2026



So, a day off where I did absolutely nothing—just relaxed the whole day through.



I even attended a political rally in Roblox.



I finished the list for my albums page—yay! It came to 102 albums and EPs... yep, 102. I’m planning to create a page with reviews for each one, so that’s 102 albums waiting to be re-listened to and evaluated... plus a whole heap of new albums I’ve never heard, and others I haven’t listened to in their entirety... yeah... I just love listening to music :3 so I’m happy.



And that’s it for today; back to work tomorrow. XoXo.



Today's Song - Coin Locker Baby - Maretu. because i just realise there's no vocaloid albuns on the page because i never listened to one entirety... we have a lot of work to do, Coin Locker Baby and Sekai Seifuku are on the list

October 17, 2026



Ah, what a day full of nothing.



I ate lasagna, bought some nail polishes and a leave-in hair conditioner, and spent the whole day wandering around the pharmacy.



I walked home with my manager—who also happens to be my neighbor—and I just wouldn’t stop talking; the poor guy must bitterly regret hiring such a chatty, silly girl.



I left my Monster in the fridge at work :c



Tomorrow is my day off, and—OK, I promise—I’ll finish the music page.



And that’s all for today, folks.



Today’s song: A Match Into Water - Pierce The Veil. My little sister picked today’s track—be proud of her for having such great taste in music (I’m the one who taught her, after all).

October 16, 2026



Another day off; I work tomorrow, and then I’m off again on Sunday. I spent the day with my sister, listening to music—fulfilling my duty as an "emo" big sister.



Some friends of my mom’s stopped by to introduce us to their little baby. Such a cute, cuddly baby! I adore babies—I’ve even thought about being a nanny; I love the idea of ​​having a tiny, adorable little thing to look after. Though, I didn’t actually hold him—I’m terrified I might drop him!



I do want to have children someday—not anytime soon, maybe in about 10 years. Being a mother is a dream of mine, but making a living through art is an even bigger dream, so I plan to achieve that first and have kids later.



Oh, and my sister and I campaigned for President Lula on Roblox—extreme measures to keep "Bolsonaro-the-devil-Jr." from becoming president!



I woke up feeling strangely happy and energetic today—it was almost weird.



Well, tomorrow’s another workday! And then it’s back to having time off—ah, life is good.



The list for the music page should be ready by tomorrow; I’ll grab a Monster energy drink after work and pull an all-nighter putting together the list of albums. After that, the album marathon begins—one per night.



Today’s song: "LosT" by Bring Me The Horizon—just because I really love this track.

October 15, 2026



First off, I’m doing okay—a few marks here and there, but my mom is acting like nothing ever happened.



I cut my hair and brought back the "emo" bangs, but something’s still missing. I think I might straighten it—for now, I’ll just use a flat iron—but I’m happy with how it turned out. I’ve already stocked up on plenty of bleach, and this time I’m going to dye it blue. I’m just waiting for my favorite brand—Miss Colorfull—to come back in stock; it’s super pigmented and relatively cheap, but it’s always sold out.



I also bought some wine to mix with condensed milk—a drink I absolutely love. But I accidentally grabbed a dry wine instead of a sweet one, and it was awful. I don’t actually like the taste of alcohol—just the effects—and dry wine is definitely not my thing. People told me it was good—Chilean and all that—but the whole point was to mix it with condensed milk and make a cheap, "boozy" concoction. It was pretty low-quality, too; it only cost R$25 (about 5 dollars).

Still, I managed to down two glasses of this nasty stuff, paired with some *queijo coalho* (griddled cheese) and salami. I got a little tipsy, and my sister and I watched some "smash or pass" videos—we laughed our asses off.



I don’t even know how I’m not drunk right now; the effects of alcohol wear off sooooo fast for me. Next time, I’ll get the right wine and drink until I forget my own name! (Don’t drink, kids—you don’t want to end up like Lavi.)



OH, and I bought a ticket to the A Skylit Drive concert!



Today’s song: Football Season Is Over - Bring Me The Horizon. for reasons related to being drunk.

October 14, 2026



i don't fucking want to write today, my head hurts because i got beaten the shit up by my mom, she can be a total bitch sometimes. she said she would put me on jail when i tried to defend myself. i'm sad because i want to stay here with my mom and my sister, but she can be so ignorant sometimes, and i'm pretty sure she's not sorry... anyways, no entry today

October 13, 2026



My day off was supposed to be tomorrow, but that’s not happening anymore. It’ll be Thursday and Friday instead... that’s life.



I feel like I should get back to working on my art, but when I get home, I just want to rest... so the only option is to create art in the morning, since I head to work at 11:30. I just need to wake up earlier, but that warm, cozy bed in the morning makes it so hard.



BUT the album page is coming along well; in a few days, I’ll manage to list them all. Yeah, I haven't listed them all yet, and after that, we’ll still have to decorate and make separate pages for each one... once the main page is ready, I’m going to start the saga of RE-LISTENING TO EVERY ALBUM I’VE EVER HEARD AND CREATING A DEDICATED PAGE FOR THEM WHILE I DO IT. And listening to new albums, too.



It’s going to be a lot of work and take a long time, but I’m pouring time and effort into something I love and want to document: music—and listening to music.



Today's song: "Happy Song" by Bring Me The Horizon. Because work is draining all my energy, BUT I can still pull the energy out of my ass to chase after my dreams.

October 12, 2026



Literally nothing to write today.



Worried about the situation in the country.



I'm continuing with the album pages, and it's turning out well. I won't listen to a new album until I've at least listed them all; I'll add the individual pages later. It might take a LONG time, but I can take it one day at a time to write each album's page. I want every page to be thematic, reflecting the album's vibe, rather than just a standard review.



Every day, I'll choose an album to listen to from start to finish and create a new page, or re-listen to one to write its entry.



Yes, I want to build a beautiful, thematic music library.



Today's song: "Come Close" by Saosin. I might be an embarrassment to post-hardcore fans, but I honestly don't like this Saosin album all that much. It's good—just not one of my favorites; I find it a bit overrated—but I'm listening to it right now.

October 11, 2026



A lot of fucking nothing. My coworkers were kinda worried about me, because the robbery stuff, but i'm okay, i swear, it was nothing.



So, i decided to go to the Skylit Drive concert, but i only know one album from them, so it's a good chance to hear more of their discography. i'll buy my ticket on 10/15.



i think i'm flirting with my stonner friend.



That's all, and i think i'm afraid of thunders



today's song: Wires and the concept of breathing - A Skylit Drive. because i want to see them live now

October 10, 2026



Day off! It was a pretty chill day.



I started the day listening to music with my little sister, and man, I raised this girl right. She’s an aspiring "scene" kid and a huge pop-punk fan—she’s actually listened to more albums by the bands I introduced her to than I have! Her favorites are Paramore, FOB, and P!ATD; she’s a total pop-punk lover, though I’m already steering her toward post-hardcore.



And I really think I was born to be her "2000s emo big sister."

We’re kind of like Noelle and Dess (I swear I’m not the Knight), and I love being the cool big sister.



Later, I went to the mall with my mom, sister, and aunt and uncle. Unfortunately, they’re leaving tomorrow :c



It was really fun; we played at the arcade, and my sister totally crushed me at every game.



It was a chill day.

I finally started working on the album review page; the intro is already done and looks beautiful—I got really creative with the aesthetic. That’s all for today; soon I’ll list all the albums and gradually add the reviews.



Today's song: My Disease – A Skylit Drive. Because I was listening to it just a little while ago. A Skylit Drive is playing here in São Paulo in February; tickets are cheap, and since the band isn't huge here, it probably won't sell out. I also won't stress as much about getting a spot right at the barricade like I did for Sleeping With Sirens—well, maybe I will. I don't think it'll sell out, so I have time to decide; even though they aren't one of my absolute favorites, it should be worth it.

October 9, 2026



So, today was a long one.



I was at work—just a normal, ordinary workday—until, out of boredom, I started thinking about the infinity of numbers and how impossible it is to grasp the concept of numerical infinity. The billions range is already absurd to comprehend, and anything beyond trillions is beyond our understanding.



So, I came up with a ridiculously large number with the sole aim of completely breaking our perception of quantity: a "Lavi" is equal to a 1 followed by 2,008 googolplexes of zeros. The number of zeros alone exceeds the total number of atoms in the observable universe. I wrote about the Lavi in ​​more detail on our new page, "Lavi's trashcan," which was created for this kind of nonsense.



But while I was thinking about my absurdly large number, the pharmacy where I work got robbed. I work the register near the door, so I was the first person they encountered—along with the store greeter. Two guys walked in, announced a robbery, and were armed.



They told us to go to the back; the manager wasn't in the store, so no one had the key to the safe. They just stole a bunch of Ozempic and left.



It was the first time I’d ever witnessed an armed robbery. I was strangely calm, knowing they could take me hostage, kill me, or do something even worse in a matter of seconds, yet I maintained an expression of utter serenity.



I’m from Rio de Janeiro—a state notorious for armed robberies—so it didn't even surprise me. Even though I’d ​​never witnessed a robbery before, I knew how to react.



Since it was close to closing time, we filed a police report and shut the store down. The police showed up, but I don't even know what happened after that. Seriously, I don't know how I stayed so calm; people kept asking if I was okay—since I'm the only woman in this group and the youngest, too—but I was perfectly at ease.



One of my colleagues said, "Lavi is shaken up," and I was like, "Am I?"



It was absolute madness. I went home afterward and was fine; I've got the day off tomorrow.



Oh, and a guy I flirted with a lot earlier this year is back... apparently in love with me. I don't buy it, but I'm down to hook up.



Man, what a crazy day. btw i wrote this entry with google translate bcs i'm tired



Today's song: In Dying Days - As Blood Runs Black. I'm getting into deathcore lately—I really need to remember to make that music catalog page, though it's going to take an ETERNITY to finish (and that's just counting the albums I've listened to so far).

October 8, 2026



I didn't update the blog yesterday, I just jotted down a quick note and wrote the full entry today (not a big entry).

Why? Because I spent the whole night confessing my love to Sam and begging him to stay with me, but he fell for someone else... Yeah... Lavi got cast aside once again, that’s typical of Sam.

He said that since being friends with an ex isn't really accepted, he’d eventually have to humiliate and curse at me... I don't know why, but... I decided to leave before he could do that. So, this time, *I* was the one who chose to bail.



I felt awful about it in the morning and even threw up, but then I listened to some deathcore and felt better... Ah, boyfriends come and go, but heavy metal is forever; my true love is a wicked breakdown and raw screaming vocals over a killer riff.



My aunt and uncle came to visit. I missed them so much! They’re just as crazy as I am, we’re a family with serious psychological issues, but we’re very happy.



Oh, and my mom was gossiping about my saga with Sam, so now my aunt and uncle hate him too. One day I’ll write a page about our insane breakups. But honestly? Fuck him. I’ve got deathcore, third-wave emo, metalcore, skramz, post-hardcore, pop-punk, wine, and masturbation—everything a girl like me could want.



Today's song: (I Used to Make Out With) Medusa – Bring Me The Horizon. Because the solo heals the hurt.

October 7, 2026



All i need to say today is: i want him back, i love him



Music of today: Demolition Lovers - My Chemical Romance. Because... i would drive on to the end with you

October 6, 2026



Day off. Chill, at least most of the day.

I think i fucked things up with Sam saying i wanted to have... with him, and well, maybe i'm taking things way too far, we're just friends and i need to HOLD UP MY FIRE OMG.



Cried like a baby because of divorced parents problems... yeah, a grown ass woman criying like a child because of family issues... i'm so pathetic.



I'm worried about this country future



I did nothing productive, i'm feeling kinda like trash, at least i spent some time with my sis.



Today's Song: Stay Still - Sub Urban. Sub Urban is my favorite male singer since i was 12, and i loved If Nevermore so much, he released a new EP a little while, but i didn't listen to it yet, i'm procrastinating as fuck. Last time i procrastinated to listen something from sub urban, it was Mercury, that became my favorite song of his, so i should llisten to it asap.

October 5, 2026



I woke up feeling like i was drunk or high, probably because i had few hours of sleep



Listening to Homage by Mild Night Club didn't help tho, i was really feeling... high while sober...

It's 5 Am now, day off tomorrow, chating with a friend. i still feeling kinda high...

maybe i'm just sleepy.



Nothing to add, today felt like a... dream?



It's been a while since i don't pass so much time awake



btw, the diary page looks good now, i decorate it!



Today's song: The Goddess - Alesana. I love this song, i want to make someone feel like this about me... call me ecstasy

October 4, 2026



Today was election day, that day that happens every four years when citizens decide who represents the country... I didn't participate, but I am DEVASTATED by the results.

The presidency is between Lula and Flavio Bolsonaro; we'll still have the second round to decide. But it seems it will be Bolsonaro Jr., son of the worst president the country has ever had. He's like the Trump of Brazil, terrible, yet strangely adored. And I'm AFRAID for the country's future. The Senate has been taken over by the far-right party, and I'm afraid of losing the few rights I have as a woman.



The good news is that some really good representatives were re-elected, like Erika Hilton! And Jones Manuel became a federal deputy! I've followed Jones for a long time; he's a popular figure among the Brazilian left, and I rooted for him a lot when he ran for office. I see that he wants to become president and change this country, and he will have my full support.



Today the atmosphere in São Paulo was apocalyptic. The sky was black even in the morning, with heavy rain and strong winds, including a Civil Defense alert. Almost no clients were at work; everyone was at home sheltering from the rain or voting. It was a calm day, a little frightening but comfortable. A calmness and solitude that I love on gray and rainy days. But it was frightening; I'm afraid for the future of this country, my beloved Brazil.



Something inside me seems to be blossoming... love? For him, of course, Sam. But I wanted to find someone new... my chapter with Sam has already ended, but we can create a new one... only time will tell.



Oh, and the page layout is still ugly, I'll fix it as soon as I have time, maybe on Tuesday.



Today's song: Doomed - Bring Me The Horizon. Because I feel we're lost electing Lucifer the devil himself, Bolsonaro Jr., as president.

October 3, 2026



OK, things turned out... funny, he's a minnor... I DIDN'T KNEW IT, so, we're friends now, but forget all of the crush stuff.



Tear down the new romance drama, there's no romance in my shitty life. at least i had the feeling of falling in love again, but i hope the next one is a little older. At least is a funny story to tell my future children. AND THANKS GOD I DIDN'T DIRECTLY FLIRTED WITH HIM, THIS WOULD BE AWFULL



Can't have shit on this life, funeral for the butterfly on my stomach tomorrow.



I couldn't help but laugh, i was making up a lot of shit when it was just my imagination... so, i'll stop seeking for a boyfriend now... let's go back to gooning



Bro i'm fucking stupid



Song of today: Masturbating in a Coffin - Elita. because i will but not in a coffin

October 2, 2026



What a boring day, i need to stop procrastinating.

i convinced my colleague of playing undertale, and i'm trying to make people play undertale since i'm 10.

I'm living an inner drama because of my crush, like "he likes me?" "he hates me?" "why i want them so much?". just an avarage day at Lavi's life.



A girl complimented my lip piercings and my purple hair :>

AND i want more lip piercings, and dye my hair again. AND I NEED TO CUT MY HAIR SO BAD

I'm probably doing it on my next day off, and i'll dye my hair on my next payment, BUT I DID'T CHOOSE THE COLOR YET



I'm thinking about teal, red again, blonde? I don't knoooow.



Ok i think we officialy left the ex-boyfriend drama and enter the new crush drama



Today's Song: Venus Fly Trap - Marina. because nothing in this world can change me

October 1, 2026



Day off! and a new page, the layout it's not ready yet..



I went to the shopping with sister, i had to get my id but i got late so... i coudn't. So we just hang over the shopping and it was COOL. we drink monter energy, then we went to this cool park with the cool rides, like roler coasters and a ferris wheel! it was so cool



Then we went to my favorite restaurant, Eat Asia, it's hello kitty themed. I had sushi, and my sister had burger and fries.



Then we went to Daiso Japan, i love Daiso, i love Japanese things (especialy Sanrio), and i bought two mini bags, also Sanrio themed. they're cute and i was really missing smaller bags for better storage. i put condoms in one of those mini cute bags... like, cute My Melody art on the outside, CHEAP CONDOMS ON THE INSIDE.



Also bought a My Melody and Kuromi coloring book (in case you didn't notice, i love Sanrio). the coloring book fever didn't really catch me, i rather drawn then just color a pre-made art, BUT, it was Kuromi and My Melody themed, so we have an exepcion here. It also came with one pink marker but i absolutely hated it. i don't really like the hard chisel tip, and i hate the fine tip even more. That's actually the only reason why i bought ohuhu markers when there's cheaper options avaliable, IT'S BECAUSE OF THE TIPS.

Also, i really wanted a coloring book to get better at coloring with alcohool markers, but most of them are made with AI, and i don't want to color AI slop shit.

But this one is licensed from Sanrio and there's no AI in it, and the arts are very cute, i loved it.



Then we went home, it was a lovelyyy day!

Note to self: i need to cut my emo hair again, i'm starting to look way too normal.



Song of Today: Emergecy - Paramore. because i was sharing my youtube music acount with my sister, and we reached the 0,1% Paramore listeners, and most of the streams were hers! I raised this girl so right, i'm really the emo big sister