October 13, 2026



My day off was supposed to be tomorrow, but that’s not happening anymore. It’ll be Thursday and Friday instead... that’s life.



I feel like I should get back to working on my art, but when I get home, I just want to rest... so the only option is to create art in the morning, since I head to work at 11:30. I just need to wake up earlier, but that warm, cozy bed in the morning makes it so hard.



BUT the album page is coming along well; in a few days, I’ll manage to list them all. Yeah, I haven't listed them all yet, and after that, we’ll still have to decorate and make separate pages for each one... once the main page is ready, I’m going to start the saga of RE-LISTENING TO EVERY ALBUM I’VE EVER HEARD AND CREATING A DEDICATED PAGE FOR THEM WHILE I DO IT. And listening to new albums, too.



It’s going to be a lot of work and take a long time, but I’m pouring time and effort into something I love and want to document: music—and listening to music.



Today's song: "Happy Song" by Bring Me The Horizon. Because work is draining all my energy, BUT I can still pull the energy out of my ass to chase after my dreams.

October 12, 2026



Literally nothing to write today.



Worried about the situation in the country.



I'm continuing with the album pages, and it's turning out well. I won't listen to a new album until I've at least listed them all; I'll add the individual pages later. It might take a LONG time, but I can take it one day at a time to write each album's page. I want every page to be thematic, reflecting the album's vibe, rather than just a standard review.



Every day, I'll choose an album to listen to from start to finish and create a new page, or re-listen to one to write its entry.



Yes, I want to build a beautiful, thematic music library.



Today's song: "Come Close" by Saosin. I might be an embarrassment to post-hardcore fans, but I honestly don't like this Saosin album all that much. It's good—just not one of my favorites; I find it a bit overrated—but I'm listening to it right now.

October 11, 2026



A lot of fucking nothing. My coworkers were kinda worried about me, because the robbery stuff, but i'm okay, i swear, it was nothing.



So, i decided to go to the Skylit Drive concert, but i only know one album from them, so it's a good chance to hear more of their discography. i'll buy my ticket on 10/15.



i think i'm flirting with my stonner friend.



That's all, and i think i'm afraid of thunders



today's song: Wires and the concept of breathing - A Skylit Drive. because i want to see them live now

October 10, 2026



Day off! It was a pretty chill day.



I started the day listening to music with my little sister, and man, I raised this girl right. She’s an aspiring "scene" kid and a huge pop-punk fan—she’s actually listened to more albums by the bands I introduced her to than I have! Her favorites are Paramore, FOB, and P!ATD; she’s a total pop-punk lover, though I’m already steering her toward post-hardcore.



And I really think I was born to be her "2000s emo big sister."

We’re kind of like Noelle and Dess (I swear I’m not the Knight), and I love being the cool big sister.



Later, I went to the mall with my mom, sister, and aunt and uncle. Unfortunately, they’re leaving tomorrow :c



It was really fun; we played at the arcade, and my sister totally crushed me at every game.



It was a chill day.

I finally started working on the album review page; the intro is already done and looks beautiful—I got really creative with the aesthetic. That’s all for today; soon I’ll list all the albums and gradually add the reviews.



Today's song: My Disease – A Skylit Drive. Because I was listening to it just a little while ago. A Skylit Drive is playing here in São Paulo in February; tickets are cheap, and since the band isn't huge here, it probably won't sell out. I also won't stress as much about getting a spot right at the barricade like I did for Sleeping With Sirens—well, maybe I will. I don't think it'll sell out, so I have time to decide; even though they aren't one of my absolute favorites, it should be worth it.

October 9, 2026



So, today was a long one.



I was at work—just a normal, ordinary workday—until, out of boredom, I started thinking about the infinity of numbers and how impossible it is to grasp the concept of numerical infinity. The billions range is already absurd to comprehend, and anything beyond trillions is beyond our understanding.



So, I came up with a ridiculously large number with the sole aim of completely breaking our perception of quantity: a "Lavi" is equal to a 1 followed by 2,008 googolplexes of zeros. The number of zeros alone exceeds the total number of atoms in the observable universe. I wrote about the Lavi in ​​more detail on our new page, "Lavi's trashcan," which was created for this kind of nonsense.



But while I was thinking about my absurdly large number, the pharmacy where I work got robbed. I work the register near the door, so I was the first person they encountered—along with the store greeter. Two guys walked in, announced a robbery, and were armed.



They told us to go to the back; the manager wasn't in the store, so no one had the key to the safe. They just stole a bunch of Ozempic and left.



It was the first time I’d ever witnessed an armed robbery. I was strangely calm, knowing they could take me hostage, kill me, or do something even worse in a matter of seconds, yet I maintained an expression of utter serenity.



I’m from Rio de Janeiro—a state notorious for armed robberies—so it didn't even surprise me. Even though I’d ​​never witnessed a robbery before, I knew how to react.



Since it was close to closing time, we filed a police report and shut the store down. The police showed up, but I don't even know what happened after that. Seriously, I don't know how I stayed so calm; people kept asking if I was okay—since I'm the only woman in this group and the youngest, too—but I was perfectly at ease.



One of my colleagues said, "Lavi is shaken up," and I was like, "Am I?"



It was absolute madness. I went home afterward and was fine; I've got the day off tomorrow.



Oh, and a guy I flirted with a lot earlier this year is back... apparently in love with me. I don't buy it, but I'm down to hook up.



Man, what a crazy day. btw i wrote this entry with google translate bcs i'm tired



Today's song: In Dying Days - As Blood Runs Black. I'm getting into deathcore lately—I really need to remember to make that music catalog page, though it's going to take an ETERNITY to finish (and that's just counting the albums I've listened to so far).

October 8, 2026



I didn't update the blog yesterday, I just jotted down a quick note and wrote the full entry today (not a big entry).

Why? Because I spent the whole night confessing my love to Sam and begging him to stay with me, but he fell for someone else... Yeah... Lavi got cast aside once again, that’s typical of Sam.

He said that since being friends with an ex isn't really accepted, he’d eventually have to humiliate and curse at me... I don't know why, but... I decided to leave before he could do that. So, this time, *I* was the one who chose to bail.



I felt awful about it in the morning and even threw up, but then I listened to some deathcore and felt better... Ah, boyfriends come and go, but heavy metal is forever; my true love is a wicked breakdown and raw screaming vocals over a killer riff.



My aunt and uncle came to visit. I missed them so much! They’re just as crazy as I am, we’re a family with serious psychological issues, but we’re very happy.



Oh, and my mom was gossiping about my saga with Sam, so now my aunt and uncle hate him too. One day I’ll write a page about our insane breakups. But honestly? Fuck him. I’ve got deathcore, third-wave emo, metalcore, skramz, post-hardcore, pop-punk, wine, and masturbation—everything a girl like me could want.



Today's song: (I Used to Make Out With) Medusa – Bring Me The Horizon. Because the solo heals the hurt.

October 7, 2026



All i need to say today is: i want him back, i love him



Music of today: Demolition Lovers - My Chemical Romance. Because... i would drive on to the end with you

October 6, 2026



Day off. Chill, at least most of the day.

I think i fucked things up with Sam saying i wanted to have... with him, and well, maybe i'm taking things way too far, we're just friends and i need to HOLD UP MY FIRE OMG.



Cried like a baby because of divorced parents problems... yeah, a grown ass woman criying like a child because of family issues... i'm so pathetic.



I'm worried about this country future



I did nothing productive, i'm feeling kinda like trash, at least i spent some time with my sis.



Today's Song: Stay Still - Sub Urban. Sub Urban is my favorite male singer since i was 12, and i loved If Nevermore so much, he released a new EP a little while, but i didn't listen to it yet, i'm procrastinating as fuck. Last time i procrastinated to listen something from sub urban, it was Mercury, that became my favorite song of his, so i should llisten to it asap.

October 5, 2026



I woke up feeling like i was drunk or high, probably because i had few hours of sleep



Listening to Homage by Mild Night Club didn't help tho, i was really feeling... high while sober...

It's 5 Am now, day off tomorrow, chating with a friend. i still feeling kinda high...

maybe i'm just sleepy.



Nothing to add, today felt like a... dream?



It's been a while since i don't pass so much time awake



btw, the diary page looks good now, i decorate it!



Today's song: The Goddess - Alesana. I love this song, i want to make someone feel like this about me... call me ecstasy

October 4, 2026



Today was election day, that day that happens every four years when citizens decide who represents the country... I didn't participate, but I am DEVASTATED by the results.

The presidency is between Lula and Flavio Bolsonaro; we'll still have the second round to decide. But it seems it will be Bolsonaro Jr., son of the worst president the country has ever had. He's like the Trump of Brazil, terrible, yet strangely adored. And I'm AFRAID for the country's future. The Senate has been taken over by the far-right party, and I'm afraid of losing the few rights I have as a woman.



The good news is that some really good representatives were re-elected, like Erika Hilton! And Jones Manuel became a federal deputy! I've followed Jones for a long time; he's a popular figure among the Brazilian left, and I rooted for him a lot when he ran for office. I see that he wants to become president and change this country, and he will have my full support.



Today the atmosphere in São Paulo was apocalyptic. The sky was black even in the morning, with heavy rain and strong winds, including a Civil Defense alert. Almost no clients were at work; everyone was at home sheltering from the rain or voting. It was a calm day, a little frightening but comfortable. A calmness and solitude that I love on gray and rainy days. But it was frightening; I'm afraid for the future of this country, my beloved Brazil.



Something inside me seems to be blossoming... love? For him, of course, Sam. But I wanted to find someone new... my chapter with Sam has already ended, but we can create a new one... only time will tell.



Oh, and the page layout is still ugly, I'll fix it as soon as I have time, maybe on Tuesday.



Today's song: Doomed - Bring Me The Horizon. Because I feel we're lost electing Lucifer the devil himself, Bolsonaro Jr., as president.

October 3, 2026



OK, things turned out... funny, he's a minnor... I DIDN'T KNEW IT, so, we're friends now, but forget all of the crush stuff.



Tear down the new romance drama, there's no romance in my shitty life. at least i had the feeling of falling in love again, but i hope the next one is a little older. At least is a funny story to tell my future children. AND THANKS GOD I DIDN'T DIRECTLY FLIRTED WITH HIM, THIS WOULD BE AWFULL



Can't have shit on this life, funeral for the butterfly on my stomach tomorrow.



I couldn't help but laugh, i was making up a lot of shit when it was just my imagination... so, i'll stop seeking for a boyfriend now... let's go back to gooning



Bro i'm fucking stupid



Song of today: Masturbating in a Coffin - Elita. because i will but not in a coffin

October 2, 2026



What a boring day, i need to stop procrastinating.

i convinced my colleague of playing undertale, and i'm trying to make people play undertale since i'm 10.

I'm living an inner drama because of my crush, like "he likes me?" "he hates me?" "why i want them so much?". just an avarage day at Lavi's life.



A girl complimented my lip piercings and my purple hair :>

AND i want more lip piercings, and dye my hair again. AND I NEED TO CUT MY HAIR SO BAD

I'm probably doing it on my next day off, and i'll dye my hair on my next payment, BUT I DID'T CHOOSE THE COLOR YET



I'm thinking about teal, red again, blonde? I don't knoooow.



Ok i think we officialy left the ex-boyfriend drama and enter the new crush drama



Today's Song: Venus Fly Trap - Marina. because nothing in this world can change me

October 1, 2026



Day off! and a new page, the layout it's not ready yet..



I went to the shopping with sister, i had to get my id but i got late so... i coudn't. So we just hang over the shopping and it was COOL. we drink monter energy, then we went to this cool park with the cool rides, like roler coasters and a ferris wheel! it was so cool



Then we went to my favorite restaurant, Eat Asia, it's hello kitty themed. I had sushi, and my sister had burger and fries.



Then we went to Daiso Japan, i love Daiso, i love Japanese things (especialy Sanrio), and i bought two mini bags, also Sanrio themed. they're cute and i was really missing smaller bags for better storage. i put condoms in one of those mini cute bags... like, cute My Melody art on the outside, CHEAP CONDOMS ON THE INSIDE.



Also bought a My Melody and Kuromi coloring book (in case you didn't notice, i love Sanrio). the coloring book fever didn't really catch me, i rather drawn then just color a pre-made art, BUT, it was Kuromi and My Melody themed, so we have an exepcion here. It also came with one pink marker but i absolutely hated it. i don't really like the hard chisel tip, and i hate the fine tip even more. That's actually the only reason why i bought ohuhu markers when there's cheaper options avaliable, IT'S BECAUSE OF THE TIPS.

Also, i really wanted a coloring book to get better at coloring with alcohool markers, but most of them are made with AI, and i don't want to color AI slop shit.

But this one is licensed from Sanrio and there's no AI in it, and the arts are very cute, i loved it.



Then we went home, it was a lovelyyy day!

Note to self: i need to cut my emo hair again, i'm starting to look way too normal.



Song of Today: Emergecy - Paramore. because i was sharing my youtube music acount with my sister, and we reached the 0,1% Paramore listeners, and most of the streams were hers! I raised this girl so right, i'm really the emo big sister