Wanna talk about your day?

September 30, 2026



day off tomorrow! this will probably be the last day on this page. since it's getting too big and with too many logs i'll make a new one each one. and this one will stay saved and untouched.



I have a big conversation with Sam, tried to make him feel good. it's crazy how i care so much about someone who hurt me so much... but it's always good to be gentle. I'm loyal as a puppy, you can abandon me a thousend times, and i still be happy when you come back. but i'm good that i still important.



But i don't want to go back, i'm in love with... cute latino boy... oh i hope he likes me

and everything going well.

i really want to start a little art shop. sell acessories and small paintings... i'ts something i really like, and i can make some money out of it!

Lavi's Atelie coming soon! HERE I COME SAN FRANDISCO



Song of today: Good Enough - Evanescence. because it fits my situation

September 29, 2026



We chatted again. I'm absolutely in love, and it feels so good

I'm in love, i'm good with Sam, i'll get paid tomorrow, everything is perfect. Thanks gods



Hes kinda weird, but i really like it, he's cute



i'm very sleepy, so, goodnight Lavi.

This is the shortest entry i ever wrote, prob because i'm too busy being in love and because um soooo sleepy



Today's song: 400 Lux - Lorde. because i like the vibe

September 28, 2026



What an exausting day. i went far far far away for a work meeting, and i still had to did all the way back to work, it was very tiering.



and i don't want to write more.

My sis is participating a poetry competition at her school, and i'll help her because it's been years since i started writing poetry, so it's my duty as the big sister.



btw my crush never talked to me again, i think he's shy.



today's song: flower man - Toby Fox: because jarona, i want to sleep

September 27, 2026



Day off, very chill



i'm in peace with everything rn.

trying to learn spanish pick up lines because i fell in love with a gringo



i was listening to some barbie movies songs and, omg, i can sound weird but i still love barbie movies being a grow ass woman.

c'mom, Barbie told me to keep my sparkle on and show this world where i belong. all it takes is a little feith, believe it! this will me my motivation quote, thanks Barbie.



And since i'm a huuuge dreamer and i dream about doing art for a living and being recognized by it, it really fits well.



I'm happy, that's it.



Song of today: I'm Weird - Ghost Town. because i'm weird

September 26, 2026



A very important day.

a chapter reaches an ending.



the crazy ex lovers saga is over, no one will hear me talking about "my ex" now, it's finally over.

i'm not entering in details, because it goes beyond me.

but long history short, this story had a conclusion. they missed me as much as i missed them. they made mistakes and so did i, they apologised and... show me, didn't told, show, that i still being important. they still think about me, our story was never a waste.



And now... i'm sure that love is worth it. we're not going back together tho, but we're friends now!



I still being the only one who can understand this mess called Sam, my friends would judge me if they know (OMG I HOPE THEY DON'T READ THIS), so i'm keeping it as a secret.



the conversation i had, it healed something inside of me, like all of my injuries finally heal.

and i'm ready to love again, i alredy have a crush in someone, like i told before.



i'm so... happy. i'm happy that my biggest reason for sadness these days finally came to an end, i'm feeling better than ever... i hope i never forget the conversation i had today. it's good to know that the person i met still alive... and know we're friends! better of than lovers honestly



oh and, wish me luck with my crush

day off tomorrow btw



song of today: Mess - Get Scared. usually, i think about this song being about me. but, it can also be about them, the best kind of mess i ever met

September 25, 2026



OK OK OK, i'm def in love with the guy, know what it means? I CAN LOVE AGAIN, SO FUCK MY EX, I EVEN TEXTED HIM, A FINAL TEXT OF GOODBYE, IT'S THE END OF A CHAPTER, THE FUCKING END FINALY, AND FUCK EVERYTHING, LAVI'S BACK TO LOVE BABE



AND THAT'S IT, I LIKE THE GUY, IT CAN TURN OUT TO BE NOTHING, OR IT CAN BE EVERYTHING, THE THING IS: I'M FUCKING BACK AND THE BUTTERFLY ON MY STOMACH DIDN'T GAVE UP ON ME, LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO



SCREW HIM, HE WASN'T



Song of today: Let Love Bleed Red - Sleeping With Sirens. LET'S LOVE RIGHT NOW AND LEAVE THE PAST IN THE PAST, THIS IS A DAY FOR CHEERING AND CELEBRATE, LET'S FUCKING GO

September 24, 2026



OMG what a nice dayyy

i had a lot of plans but they we're interupted by... someone, and i think they're into me and i'm def into them. I can't explain how much i love shy, quiet boys, and oh god it's too early but, i can't lie to myself. But it can be a false alarm again, idk, BUT I WISH IT'S NOT.



I also played cards with my sister, i lose



And that's it, maybe we'll see chapters of Lavi falling in love? or am i too emotive? KEEP UP FOLLOWING LAVI'S DIARY



and, about not doing what i wanted to do, my next day off will be on sunday, so i'm chiilll



very short log because i'm too busy falling in love early for someone i don't even know the name yet :3



today's song: Mother Tongue - BMTH. beeecaaause, well, different languages... hihi

September 23, 2026



A nice day!



I spent the whole day with my sister, and i did my nails. I wish i could made more stuff today, i hate leaving things for tomorrow, but i don't regret it! i wasn't wasting my time, i was spendind it with my favorite person in the whole world, my little sister!



We're doing a competition on roblox retail tycoon (old af game, but it was popular when i was a kid), the best store wins, and the deadline is the end of the month. I want to win, and she's taking it serious so i'm taking it MORE serious.



I even want to produce a lil song for my store, and it will be my first complete song. I'll start working on it tomorrow. maybe i'll also work on the Music Log page (i always talk about it and never start), and finish a drawing or painting.

But there's no problem if i don't finish everything tomorrow, i just need to take steps, no need to finish everything at once.



I think someones into me. they send me a dm on insta but i'm too shy. and i still needy. I'll reply tomorrow because it's too late today



oh i also watched my favorite TV series, TAPAS & BEIJOS (idk if it was ever translated to english, it's a brazilian show). One of the main actress, Fernanda Torres, was the first brazilian woman who won a golden globe! And the second one to be indicated to an oscar, the first one was HER MOTHER, Fernanda Montenegro (yeah, they're both called Fernanda). She's an amazing actress!



I'm going to sleep happy, it was a nice day!



Todays Song: New Perspective - Panic! At The Disco. Loooove this song, and i also love Jennifers Body. Because i'm a little gay girl who felt in love with my bestie when i was 11, and i had my first kiss with her. (and i'll wrote a ton of songs about it)

September 22, 2026



Day off tomorrow! and it's a double



I Want to do a lot of things tomorrow and on the next day. And this includes building my music catalog page. it will be a HUUUUGEEEEE page with a lot of subpages. it will take a long long long long long time to finish.



and about today, lot's of nothing. but i'm doing great at work, i'm trying to get up earlier but it's sooo hard, like, nooo i don't wanna leave my warm bed.



yeah, that's all. i don't want to repeat myself. I'm pround of myself because i'm going very far with this page project. i ALWAYS abandom my projects, but not this one! I really want this page to be kind of a time machine, a picture of my life, a warp in time. So i want to go very far with this daily log thing.

this page it's not realy meant to be popular or seen, it's more of a record of my person that i want to keep as a memory. creepy?



Someone made fun of my accent today, not realy bullying, it was most of a "hey, you speak funny, cool". I like it when people like my accent but sometimes i get a little bit insecure. For context, i was born and raised in the state of Rio de Janeiro, and the Rio accent is one of the most recognizebles in Brasil, everyone know where i'm from in the moment that i open my mouth. sometimes it gets annoying when people say "say this word", and them i pronunciate it in the "wrong" way. I love my accent and i'm not changing it, BIXCOITO, CARALHO.



Today's Song: Ancient Dreams in a Modern Land - Marina. I relate so much to this song, and most Marina's songs actually. i think i'm a character writen by Marina Diamandis

September 21, 2026



Ok, something mildly interesting happend at work today. Someone left a car on the parking lot... and that's it, i don't know why, we suspect it might be a stolen car, the store couldn't close because the car was on the middle of where the gate go... i don't know what happend after because i left.



Actually, it was not that interesting.



When i get home, i play some roblox tds with sissy, she's evolving sooo fast, she's a way better player then my ex, we're a great team! she can handle the early game while i farm and prepare the soil for the end game. she beated the molten mode by herself, with a basic loadout, i'm so pround of my girl!



Since nothing more interesting happend, we're skipping to the song of today, with a weird lore



Today's Song: Situations - Escape The Fate. OKAY, i love this album so much, it is one of my favorites of all times. But, funny thing, i don't like Ronnie as a vocalist and as a person, so i never gave a chance to falling in reverse, maybe someday, but only the older songs because i don't really like the newer ones. AND i also never listened the after-Ronnie ETF albums, because it doesn't have Ronnie on it.

I live in a love hate situation with Ronnie Radke.

AND it got worse, so much worse, so fucking worse when i dreamt i was making out with him. i still remember it too well... i looked back and said "Ronnie, do you have condoms?" and them the clock started screaming. BUT the song of my alarm is not any song, it is PIPOCA COM SAL (popcorn with salt), By Palhaço Caçarola (brazilian clown and kind of a meme). Yeah, it was a perfect way to start my morning.

Why Hypnos and the gods of sleep, WHY YOU DID IT TO ME? WHY RONNIE? IT COULD BE ANYONE. And worse of all, WHY I COULDN'T FINISH? Like, you alredy gave me the foreplay, why not the whole thing???

I Remember this dream everytime i hear this song wtf

September 20, 2026



worked all day, nothing great. but some thoughts crossed my mind today.



I was thinking about myself in a relashionship again. It's funny because i miss fisical touch and love and romantic shit, but i can't really imagine someone. i can't imagine myself having a relashinship with anyone, like getting married or just dating, i can't!

Everyone seems interesting but at the same time, no one does. It's so weird.



It's like "cute boy/girl i want to date them" but at the same time "no, i don't really want to date". i'm living in a weird valley of wanting a partner and don't at the same time!

I'm needy as fuck and i'm too scared of getting hurt again at the same time!

I want romance but i can't fall in love, i really can't.

Man wtf is wrong with me?



So, ignoring all of my romantic chaos, omg i want to thank my ex for introducing me to Tim Henson. And i'm not even a fan of polyphia, i actualy DISLIKE polyphia... but man... this guy has talent and WHY IS HE SO HOT? yeah i know, amazing guitarist, one of the best of his generation but, DAMN HE'S HOT, CAN WE TALK ABOUT IT? I'm REALLY into "feminine" men, like, men with feminine traces, idk why, i just find it hot. God forbid a girl for having a massive weak on femboys and twinks.



Today's Song: ABC - Polyphia, feat. Sofia Black. Like i said, i don't like polyphia (funny, since i really admire Tim as a guitarist and because he's hot), but this song is the only exeption, like, i really thought polyphia was a metal band, and this song is pretty pop, but i love it! maybe i should give a second chance to polyphia? actually thrid chance... yeah, BUT TIM IS HOT, and a great guitarist sure, so it deserves a third chance

September 19, 2026



Ahoy, mateys! Today is "Talk Like a Pirate" Day; I used to always join in on the fun, but these days I work in customer service, and the public doesn't quite get the lingo of the seven seas. I still need to write here about the great pirate Captain Arry Jackie O'Lavi—inventor of eyeliner and commander of the world's first emo pirate crew—and about her marriage to and divorce from Ms. Mary Anne, the captain's first wife!



I got home from work and immediately startet playing tds with my little sister; she's improving fast. She's way smarter than my ex, too—a much better Player 2. We had so much fun we didn't even realize it was already 3 AM.



As for my broken phone... well, it's still broken. I probably won't be able to get it fixed until the beginning of next month. Until then, I'm using an old one of my sister's. It gets the job done.



Does today's text look different? That's because I wrote it in Portuguese—my native language—first and then just ran it through Google Translate. It seems much more cohesive, though less natural if you know my usual writing style. My English is pretty broken, but I think there's a certain charm to that—though I do plan to improve. I can actually understand english perfectly, BUT WRITING ON CORRECT GRAMMAR AND PUTTING WHAY I WANT TO COMUNICATE ON WORDS IS WAY MORE DIFFICULT.



I'm going to do the same when i post my poetry here. i always write them in portuguese, because, well, IT'S MY MOTHER TONGUE, i can express myself in a more natural way. then i'll just translate it to english



I usually write directly in English, but it's so late today that I don't even want to use up my English brainpower; I just want to record the day and go to sleep...



And that's exactly what I'm going to do. Bye-bye! Zzzzz.



Today's Song - The Murderer - Alesana. because SO SWEET

September 18, 2026



Day off! i want to sleep so i'll make it quick.



I went to the mall with my mum, we resolved some pendent problems so i can get my id on next month



I didn't finish my drawing... maybe on my next day off, it will be a double.

I was playing TDS when i googled about the hard mode and found out that a solo mode tryumph is almost impossible, so i'm teaching my sister how to play, so she can help me, and she really liked the game!



Them, my wifi died. but i made some quick improvisation so i could write this log.



It's crazy how i miss him more every single day. Something always feels off when i hear friends and family and even myself talking about him as an ex.

I't feels like something is very very wrong and i shouldn't be taking this path.



But we just CAN'T go back. I promisse i'll write about our whole history, maybe on my next day off.

He probably hates me, he would surely humiliate me if i try to contact him. But i still like to imagine him coming back, we would have to abandom a lot of things since my friends and family hates him, and his friends and family hates me.

No one would forgive me for coming back to him after all, and i would never swap my friends for him. They stood with me when i needed, not him.



Anyways



Song of today: Follow You - BMTH. i could talk about what this songs means to me all day, i'ts like a bittersweet love. My ex dedicated this to me, it was our song.

Oli wrote this for his wife, ex-wife now. And now his married and had childrens with another women.

So, i think lovesongs don't mean that much... and if he was able to love again after something so intense, i'm sure i can also love again.

September 17, 2026



I'm feeling MISERABLE. I cried a lot, i think i'm about to get my period because i'm too sesible and craving for sweets and stuff.

My mom wants me to leave the house AGAIN, but i don't wanna leave, i wanna stay here with my mom and sister, i don't like to live aloneeee.

My father don't want me near, my boyfriend dumped me, my mom also don't want me, WHY NOBODY LOVES ME?



And my phone broke... WHY, WHY ME? The screen started poping colors out of nowere and now it's almost impossible to see the screen. i'll only have money again on day 30th, so, i need to hold up for some weeks, unless my phone come back to life out of nowhere, GODDESS LISTEN TO ME.

Not that horrible because i still have my notebook, so, i think it will be good for me.



AND SUDDENLY I MISS MY EX, OH FUCK MY LIFE



Song of today: Shadow Moses - BMTH. THIS IS SANDPIT TURTLE. my situation with sempiternal is kinda funny, i'll remember to write about it an album dedicated page

September 16, 2026



Day Off!!!! Day off from my page too, i'm not writing today, XOXO 💋💋

JK, i don't really wanna write because it's damn cold and my hands are kinda freezing, so i'll make it quick



i chilled all day, i took my long bath, i argued with my mom because of the long bath.

I'm happy with my purchase yesterday, everythings worth it, my skin looks good, my hair looks perfect, my lips are soft, i'm smelling nice, so i'm satisfied



I also started a drawing, and i'll probably finish it on friday because it will be a day off too!!

So, i'm working tomorrow, and them day off again, perfect! I want to paint it with gouache, it's been a while since i don't use gouache. And i just checked my gouache pallete because i was worried about it getting moldy, but my paints looks okay, they're just a little bit dry, but nothing i can't fiz with a little bit of water and a toothpick.



I played some roblox tower defense simulator, bro i love this game. my ex boyfriend introduced me to this game and we used to play together... and then i started playing alone, and i overthroned him before he even noticied.

AND THEM I TURNED INTO A DICTADOR AND STARTED BOSSING AT HIM, like "UPGRADE THIS TOWER, WTF ARE YOU DOING", i was just a little but, just a little little bit toxic, but he enjoyed playing with me anyways.



Now i don't have my player 2 anymore :c i failed a lot with the little guy, but he turned out to be a person so cruel that i think i shoud have been meaner to him when i had the chance to. I have to write about our terrible amazing relacionshipp here one day, and how i have mixed love and hate feelings about him.

i thing it will be interesting to read after some years



and that's it! chill day and i'm smealling amazing



Song of today: I Didn't say i was powerful, i Said I Was A Wizard - Chiodos. just because i like this song and this long af tittle

September 15, 2026



Day off tomorrow!!!!!



i get payed today, not my entire payment, just a third of it. and i alredy spended almost everything.

i don't really like to waste money on stupid shit, and i don't like to buy lots of the same product because that's stupid. i mean, i don't need 20 different types of shampoo, i'll only use one by the end of the day.

i brought mostly hair and skin products, i'm very happy with my little shopping, and i gave most part of my payment to my mom.

i also brought a hoodie because is getting cold here, a wallet (my last one broke), and some piercings because i lose ALL of my piercings



I have a serious problem with spending too much money, my payment never lasts a whole month, but that's because i grew up very very very poor. and now that i work and have money, i buy everything i see

i know, i shouldn't be a consumist, but i'm not. actually nothing that i buy is wasted, i use everything ultill the end and i recycle a lot too :>

I only buy new stuff when my current one is over, like hair products (but there are some exeptions)

and when i don't want nothing, i buy gifts, i love gifting my mom and my sis



AND I WANT TO GATHER MONEY FOR A GUITAR. So, I'm not spending my whole next payment, we'll KEEP IT, untill i have enought to buy my guitar

i also drank a milkshake, it was SOOO YUMMYYYYY i love sweeties



I also drank a whole white monster can, i liked it, but pipeline punch still being my favorite one



I also hit my head at home before I went to work, and I fell down the stairs at work. It kinda hurts now, it was a very embarrassing fall, my legs really hurt, but nothing too serious, I'm okay I guess



and thats aaallll for today, an okay day, nice shopping spree, and i'll take a damn good bath tomorrow. i'll test my new hair products. I hope my hair turns out looking good, because it was kinda expensive. Not actually expensive, BUT EXPENSIVE FOR MY STANDARDS.

it's the elseve total repair 5, my hair is very fucked so i hope it works. But if it don't work, i'll say it. I hope it may be a usefull review for my fellow alt folks with damage hair by bleacing and coloring.



Today's Song: My Ordinary Life - The Living Tombstone - I love tlt, it makes me feel like a little weird kid again. I WAS A WEIRD AF KID OBSESSED WITH INDIE HORROR GAMES, i still kinda obsessed with indie terror games.

I like how i was never a "normal" kid, i was always weird, and i'll keep being weird because being normal is boooorriiiingg, and that's just who i am

September 14, 2026



I'm just so sad today. i wake up angry because i'm single and i see cute alt couples everywhere and i can't say i'm not jealous because i am, A LOT.



I don't even know what to write about, i'm just so needy. i wish i could talk to him again and i kinda want to bite my hand off so i won't do it



Maybe i should download tinder but, no one seems interesting, no one, no fucking one

But i can't go back with him either, or my friends would kill me, and he surely don't want to go back with me.

So, forever single i guess :c



I'm getting paid tomorrow, i'll buy some stuff for me, my day off will be on wednesday and i want to take a long and nice refreshing soul cleaner mega super ultra shower! so i'm buying some shower things.

I work at a drug store, so i can buy a lot of products there



man i'm fucking depressed, should i call him? nah he would never answer. i need to just, move on... how?



Today's song: Miss World - Hole. because i'm feeling just like it right now

September 13, 2026

a day full of nothing!

i'm tired as fuck



My friend Pedro did a little serenade about being my bro, i love my bro so much (we're brothers from different mothers and fathers)



I miss my ex, nothing new about the sun



I'm going really great at work, my maneger praised me for my good progress! i like this job, i'm problably not quiting untill my art starts to make money (this will take years because i'm just starting on music)



Hey, if you're reading this, know that one day i'll be famous, and you'll be able to say "i knew her since Lavi's Room, her 2026 blog", and call all the other fans posers



We have a new page now, Lavi's camera, for very emo pics

And that's all for today! chill day



Today's song: I Caught Fire - The Used. because i want to fall in love so bad :c i hope i can love again someday

September 12, 2026

Lot's of nothing! I want my next double day off sooooo bad.



I'm had frozen lasagna for lunch, it tasted surprisingly good!

I'm probably not leaving home, idk, random problems starts out of nowhere and end out of nowhere here in this house.



and... that's all. Not a productive day at all! But I'm good, i guess

Hope i have more things to talk about tomorrow

And i want to create a page for my photos, photos of me, with clothes on, NOT WITHOUT CLOTHES, NOT THIS KIND OF PICS



I want a boyfriend



Today's song: Sleep - My Chemical Romance. Because i need some

September 11, 2026

Day Off!!!! not a very productive day like i wanted it to be, but def a nice and calm day.

we have a new page now, Lavi's Radio, with cool playlists!



My mom is good, she's not leaving with my sister soon, she made up things with my stepfather and they're good now. honestly, i hope she dumps him because he's not a really good person and somethimes i worry about her independance. but she will get back working by her own, and i'll leave probably next month.



i watched a movie, The Butterfly Effect, and what a crazy movie. i't has a very cool and well written story, i really recomend it!



and... that's all, a very chill day! very nice... i'm going to sleep soon and i feel good, maybe because of what i'm listening to...

the song of today, First date, by frad. i'm not a fan of lo-fi, my ex used to love it and listen to a lot of lo-fi, so it brings me bittersweet memories.



but this song, i discovered it way before i met him, so it brings me good late childhood memories. My childhood was not that great, lot of traumas actually, but this song... i don't know, it just makes me happy.

I'm happy... i'ts not a thing i realise oftenly, so, it's good to say... i'm happy.

what? i'm i really feeling good? i'ts nice, it's feels good to feel good...



maybe i should start sleeping with lo-fi playing, like my ex used to, it makes me feel confortable... yeah, that bitch knew things. Sooo, thanks Sam? you we're not that bad



Song of today: First Date - frad. I'm literally listening it on repeat right now before go to sleep. it feels good to feel good

September 10, 2026

I't rained a lot today, tomorrow is my day off



We're having problems home, i don't want to get into details here, but, a long story short, my stepfather isn't satisfied just with me leaving the house (my plan was to rent a room to stay, so my mom and sis can keep living here without worries), he want me to be beaten and humiliated.

he can't do this, because Brazil has a very strict law about violence towards women (thanks our brave women), so he would be totaly arrested. So he want's my mom to do it, she won't do it. So we're leaving for good.



I created some new pages, i'll try to build them all tomorrow, but it will probably take some days and maybe weeks to finish. btw, our page is growing, i'm happy with that.

Wish i could do more stuff tonight, i'm usually more productive at late night... but i'm really tired, so, goodnigh today



song of today: Pressure - Paramore. i can feel the pressure, i'ts getting closer now. we're better off without you

September 9, 2026

Nothing, literally nothing, not a single damn thing.

my page has a pet now, welcome Junior, my baby.

i listened to a weird music called homage, by mild high club. i like weird music, i wish i can be abble to produce it one day.



i also watched this funny video of Andy Biersack (love him) absolutely roasting Kellin Quinn (also love him). I know i'ts a joke but POOR KELLIN BRO, he was being so polite as Andy fucking roasts him. As a lil emo girl, i loved it.



Now at night i'll probably play some roblox with my sister, and that's all for today! Not much, i know :/ avarage days make good days feel better... i guess?

My Day off will be on friday, so maybe i can do cool things tomorrow late night, like music or gaming or decorating my page, maybe adding the music catalog or even pasting my poetry here!



oh and a random old man kissed my forehead out of nowere, BY THE SECOND TIME. He just went to the back of the cashier tabble where i was at, and kissed me.

My co-workers told me to don't let him do it and to even scream if he tries to, because he's "naughty"... i didn't reacted because i was shocked. Just an avarage day at a woman's life O_o men, don't be like that, it's a fucking crime



Today's Song: We Wasn't - Avril Lavigne. Because there's not much going on today

September 8, 2026

Nothing new about the sun, avarage day at work.

but i met someone... acutally, they alredy knew me, but i didn't remember them. I LOVE ROMANCE STORIES.

they seem to be very nice, OMG I'M SUCH A HOPELESS ROMANTIC BITCH.

OMG I HOPE THEY WON'T READ IT.

but if you do, know that i think you're nice

WHAT WE WERE TALKING ABOUT?



I was listening to music when going back home, the youtube shuffle absolutely COOKED

I'm think about bringing more stuff to my page... I want a musical library, with a small entry about every single album i ever listened to. IT WOLD TAKE FOREVER TO FINISH, because i listen to a hell lot of music, and i would need to re-listen some albuns that i don't remember too well... btw, my goal with this page is to gather everything i love in one single place, and make myself eternal. So i can always remember who i was in the past, like making current Lavi alive forever in this page... So the musical library thing sounds cool

Cool or creepy?



Today's Song: Ex Machina - A Skylit Drive. Just Because

September 7, 2026

First of all, I failed at getting up earlier, i'll try again tomorrow

Today, september 7, it's a Brazilian National Holiday, the Independence day, it's like our 4 of july but brazilian and cooler. (everythings becomes cooler when it is brazilian)

but it was a regular day at all



i played some fighting games with my sister, and i won every round. we played street fighter 2, i'm really good at this game, i always play as Chun Li.

we also played The Last Blade, me as Akari, and i won every round too :>



I also discovered that "kool-Aid" existed in Brazil and it was called "Ki-Suco"! i alredy knew about Ki-Suco, BUT I DIDN'T KNOW KOOL-AID WAS KI-SUCO.

I was like, "kool-aid, that USA chemical juice", BUT IT WAS JUST KI-SUCO THIS WHOLE TIME

but kool-aid is way more popular in the usa now days than Ki-suco, Ki-suco was more of a 90s thing, i've never drank it... and i don't really want to

AND HERE'S THE PROOF 



And all of this investigation about kool-aid was because of the bmth song, yeah...



When i was going back home from work, i passed through a dark kinda dangerous path. i always cross this path by day, but i don't cross it at night because it's dangerous (it's dark kinda isolated and there's a lot of druged men there). but it was not that late because i left work earlier, and i was feeling brave... sooo, I CROSSED IT, AND I'M ALIVE.

i always walk alone at night with a knife colar under my shirt... so i can feel a little bit safe. don't mess up with me, i have a knife!



today's song: Kool-Aid: Bring Me The Horizon. because Ki-suco

September 6, 2026

I almost forgot to write today, Day Off, it was chill and nice

I watched "obsession" with my mum, I kinda identify to it. My friend told I'm like Niki, AND NOW I KNOW WHY. I mean, I was the obsessed girlfriend, not in that level, but I WAS.

I wrote a lil text about it, here (it's written in portuguese, I'll auto translate it but it can turn out a little cracked)



Btw my English IS cracked, but I don't really care, all that matters is to be understandable, I don't give a fuck about this language grammar (I don't care even to my mother tongue grammar). I think it's kinda cute and charming to have a little "written accent", leave a Latina Bitch alone.



I also downloaded a lot of plugging for reaper, I may wake up earlier to work a little bit on my musical projects every day

btw I'm going to the sws concert :>



today's song: Mantra - Bring Me The Horizon. Because, do you want to start a cult with me?

September 5, 2026

Today was suck a boring day so I don't have nothing interesting to write about. Tomorrow will be my day off, so maybe it will be a little bit more interesting



there was a BMTH concert in Rio today, THE STATE I WAS BORN, but the tickets for rock in rio are so expensive, it's not worth it since I only like one band (and a half, because I kinda like sepultura too). So, I'm just gonna wait for one more solo show here, probably next year.



AND I'M GOING TO THE SWS SHOW. I need to start my plans, and I'll probably talk about it until December, because I'm excited as fuck



I also eat a dessert at the end of my shift, it was delicious 10/10



today's song: Dear Diary, - Bring Me The Horizon. Just because, I like this song

September 4, 2026

Something GREAT happened. I knew Sleeping With Sirens were going to do a concert here in Brazil, and the ticket sales started today. I was worried the tickets would sould out before i get paid and have money to buy one, and it was selling very quick! But, I DON'T KNOW WHY, I got a slice of my payment TODAY, without a warning, out of nowhere, AND I BOUGHT MY TICKETS.

I'm going to see Kellin Quinn singing live, I'm so exited! It will be my first big show ever!



Later at work, i saw a guy using a shirt with Jesus on it, and he was holding an Israeli flag. I thought it doesn't make any sense because, how do can you say you follow christ but you support a country who does the opposite of what christ instructed? Total nonsense



And I'm not even Christian, I'm an helenist pagan. But Jesus is a great exemple for anyone, even those who don't believe the Bible (like me). If the church taught people to follow Jesus example instead of sucking maga's dick and killing innocent people "in the name of god" the world would be a fucking better place.



btw, fuck religious hypocrisy, what about helping your neighbor and feeding the hungry?

AND I'M GOING TO THE SWS CONCERT IN DECEMBER HOLY FUCK



today's sond: The Bomb Dot Con V2.0 - Sleeping With Sirens. Because I'm totally loosing my shit if they play this one at the Brazil concert

September 3, 2026

Day Off!! But I'll work tomorrow. Did nothing all day, 10/10 I recommend.

Did some cool makeover while my sister put some P!AtD full albums for me to listen. Funny, i introduced her to P!AtD (my mission as the emo older sister), but she turned out to be a bigger fan than me.

Then I saw some pictures of me and my ex, i didn't know it wasn't deleted, i thought i had deleted everything about him.

And damn, we where a fucking cute ass couple.

I know i sound like the obsessed ex, but fuck... i thought he was my soul mate, I loved that boy more than everything.

"So, Lavi, why won't you get back together with him?"

I tried, but he broke up with me again and again and again. And after everything he did to me, I just can't go back. He's not the same boy I felt in love with anymore, he's nothing but a jerk.



Today's song: Let's Kill it Tonight - Panic! At The Disco. P!atd was never one of my favorite bands, but my sister love's it, and she made me listen to two full albums, and it's actually prerty good, I've been sleeping on it

Septemper 2, 2026

Day Off! I went to a mall with mum to get my national ID (yeah i was also surprised I could get my id at a mall), BUT I didn't get it because I didn't brought one document, THAT I DIDN'T KNOW I SHOULD BROUGHT.

Cool thing, Oli Sykes has a Brazilian ID, so he probably passed through the same kind of shit. We need a bmth song called "i hate poupatempo"

But my day wasn't a total loss, I spend some time with my mom at the mall, that mall was huuuuge and had a lot of cool stuff, I want to bring my sister there.



then i got home... drunk some GOOD wine cocktail (and I still drinking it, but I swear I'm not drunk). And now I'm playing roblox with sissy while listening to some fire deathcore. THAT'S A GOOD LIFE. I'll also listen to some deathcore albuns i didn't listened yet, maybe some chelsea grin and Suicide Silence. I won't work tomorrow so i can stay up till fuck



Today's song: diamonds aren't forever - bring me the horizon. Because it's 1:21AM and sleep is for the fucking weak

September 1, 2026

Goodnight Billie Joe! Just another average day of work today... but tomorrow will be my day off, Yay!

Calling all the exorcists here: my ex won't disappear out of my mind. Can someone exorcise this ghost? He should at least pay rent for living in my head.



spending sometime with my mom and sissy. I missed living with them soooo much, I think we'll move out together because of my stepfather. Mom said if he make me leave, she'll leave too, and my sister too. I love them so much!!!

Someday I'll be a well know musician and I'll give a good life to my mom and sis, they deserve it



TToday' song: The Puppeteer - Alesana. Bmth and alesana is everything I'm listening to last days. And this song is sooo theatrical and dramatic, everything i love about Alesana. I really like long lasting songs that change drastically as they play

August 31, 2026

nothing really exciting today, besides my stepfather wanting to kick me out of home because he literally hate me. But my income is not enough for living alone here in São Paulo (this city is expensive as hell), btw mum said she'll help me and I'll not live on the streets eating rat sandwiches and fried roaches



Sometimes i fear i won't be able to achieve my goals and dreams. This thought terrifies me, and life seem pretty hard most of the times. It's like the universe saying "okay, now you're safe.... KIDDING, YOU'RE NOT"

But I rather stay positive. Future Lavi, when you read this blog again, please tell me: did we make it?



Today's song: liMOusIne - BMTH and Aurora. I'm listening to it 24/7, it's sooo good. I swap this song name all the time, idk why I keep calling it ambulance... am I swapping the vehicles?

August 30, 2026

i just started in a new job. i really like it, but i have way less time now. at least i'm earning some money, so i can finnance my art! i'll try to be more active here anyways



Im thinking about my ex again, i shouldn't. It's been months since he's gone, i don't know why i can't move on. I really don't want to get back to him, it would be a living hell, but he don't get out of my mind... maybe i've been a victim of a love spell? i really feel like i'm in some sort of spell



I'm currently obssesing over BMTH, his favorite band, so maybe that's the reason? i dont know. And i regret soooo much for overlooking modern BMTH, i mean, the 2004-2011 phase still being my favorite, 2014-2019 is also great, but 2020-nowdays is absolutely KICK-ASS. I was not expecting for them to came back with the heavier sound, and i'm really happy they did, I CAN'T WAIT FOR POST HUMAM 3.

also bought a nex gen t-shirt



Today's song: Catharsis - Alesana. This song is great and i love shawns voice here. This album is soooo underated